The Keurig winds down. You grab its offering, switch the lamp on, and take a seat beneath the light.
The holy Lamp and Light rests in your lap, primed to illuminate your day like the sun that gradually peers through your living room blinds. You find the spot where you last left off, take a sip from your favorite mug, and open the Book. You smile.
I’m actually going to get this done today.
About twelve verses in, you hear your daughter stirring in the other room. It is almost as if she can detect your desire to embrace spiritual disciplines and has a diabolical plan to break you. Your eyes glance at the baby monitor.
Please, God, hold her off for a little bit longer.
You take a much bigger second sip of coffee, having the feeling you are going to need it. Before returning to your reading, you glance at another screen. This one is small enough to fit into your pocket and smart enough to be your personal assistant. You have missed a few texts and emails, one in particular that seems important to address.
It will only take a second.
After replying, you decide to check your social media feeds. After all, at this point, you are tethered. After some brief scrolling, a three-minute video catches your attention. You watch it. Then another autoplays.
The stirring in the other room turns to roaring.
You look down at the Book in your lap and read, “I will meditate on your precepts and fix my eyes on your way,” (Ps. 119:15).
Apparently, not today.
A FAMILIAR TALE
I did not invent this story; I retold it from experience. It is a story I have unfortunately played the role of protagonist in far too many times. Maybe you have, too.
We struggle to find and protect unhurried time with the Lord. And there are plenty of factors we try to blame when we fall short, like lack of time or restless infants.
But the real impairment we face in these moments is not primarily an external force; it’s internal. It does not matter where we are or what kind of time we have, if our eyes are not fixed on Jesus, our time in the Word will be hopelessly frustrating.